So, I once was rough around the edges

For everyone that has a story, how many know that many will learn from what's being told. How can one describe an illusion that has no vision yet carries a tune with a sent? That's how love has been for me since I care to remember. Every since I've come to the conclusion of reveling my life through what some would see as precarious matters of the mind, I've realized all I've been through for life's sake was lived through just about any and every lesson in bits in pieces to be able to instruct the next person on how and what love really persist of and the correct steps to maintain that amazing world of wonder. Since this personal discovery I've enrolled in school as a Psychology major, I often tell myself, my friends need me so there for they will benefit more than I from the steps and choices I make and have made. For me I couldn't have turned out to be a better person no matter what I've gone through as a growing, sexually abused child through the stages of rebellion because of him, and living through care free sex was my way to deal with not respecting men, because from what I could tell, they would never respect me. I've played with emotions, minds, hearts, families, friends, and enemies. Sex for me was an addiction, just because I knew I knew I was capable of doing what ever it took to please any one man, and not to think twice about him or them later. As far as regrets, it's been said, "everyone has regrets", and I just will not bring myself to believe such a fairytale. Why regret or have guilt when what has been done is done? Life is one continuing journey, you never have the same step twice, and the page does turn, how else would one get to the end? I did and could not have been a better W.I.F.E, Friend, Lover, Mother and Aunt if I tried. All my praises and tribulations are embedded in my Thank You's to my Lord and Savior. Had my life not been for Him, I would not have been the better person I stand to be today. He is why I was never born with regret and that every step and opportunity is one for the betterment of His glory. Don't believe me just ask a "new born" sinner of his/her recent gratitude for the Lord. Go ahead, I'll wait.